Don't worry about being (or not being) active here, @ebmar -- you need dedicated time to process this, just take it slowly and take care of yourself. This is the greatest loss known to us, but also life's greatest companion. It gives genuine values and offers us new perspectives of our lives and existence. Remember your loved ones, grieve your and their loss, but you can honour those who have passed by bringing their spirit and your shared experiences with you going forward (and growing) in life. In this way, a part of them will always be with you, and their spirit and loss will be honoured, will find purpose/fulfilment, and live on.